I’m dyslexic. Oy. Not a convenient disability for a writer. And that, my friends, has been my biggest obstacle.
Impossible to overcome, it seemed. And it was (at least, without the help of technology.)
But I’ll get to that later.
First, let me tell you about the first time I realized I might have a talent for this–that maybe this writing thing could work out. I was in tenth grade, sitting in those metal desks that were designed to be painfully uncomfortable.
Our teacher, Mrs. Russell passed out notebooks. “Here’s what we’re going to do,” she said. “Every day, I’m going to give you a writing prompt. You write and don’t stop until I say. Got it?”
I rolled my eyes. Next to me sat my best buddy Dustin Eves. (And yes, we had loads of fun sharing the same first name. After years of spending more time at his house than my own, I trained his family to call him by his last name–“EVES! Make me some food!”).
“Your first prompt…,” Mrs. Russell said, “Write an alternate history of the discovery of America.”
Eves bent over his notebook, tongue hanging out of the side of his mouth, scribbling words as legibly as a second grader. But he was into it–focused, determined, grinning.
That guy experienced something I hadn’t before that day–some euphoric satisfaction. Maybe I was missing something here.
I opened my notebook and wrote. I don’t remember what I wrote. It was probably stupid. Or predictable. And most likely not nearly as funny as I thought.
But at the time, to me, it was brilliant.
“Times up,” Mrs. Russell said, before beginning her lecture on gerunds or adverbs or some other boring topic.
While she droned on, Eves and I traded notepads and read one another’s “stories.” I don’t remember what he wrote, but it was hilarious. Everyone stared at me. I fought to suppress a fit of guffaws.
That guy could write. And everything he wrote was lined with mirth-infused crack.
He chuckled a time or two at my writing–an act of charity, no doubt.
But I couldn’t let him beat me. I was the competitive sort and so, for the remainder of the semester, I tried my best to out-write him.
I got a lot of practice. Not stories, so much. But essays and commentaries.
To this day, Eves is brilliant–way better than me.
But, of course, I couldn’t be a writer. It was silly! Writers were insatiable readers. And I definitely wasn’t a reader. I hated reading. It wasn’t that I didn’t enjoy stories. I loved them–loved escaping to another world, meeting a whole new set of people and becoming inspired by how they tackle problems.
The problem was, those priceless stories were cloaked behind words–words I couldn’t decipher.
Let me describe it this way. Say you’re new to learning a language and you’re given these strange characters to translate and your interpretation can save the world from the incoming alien race. (Gotta make it fun, right?). Except, you’re new to the language. Interpreting those funny characters hasn’t become automatic yet, so you spend so much time deciphering what the characters are trying to say that you miss the message.
It’s like that. Reading with dyslexia involves an overwhelming amount of brain-power to just decipher the words. By the time I deciphered a sentence, my classmates had finished the page. By the time I understood the page, my brain hurt.
Reading was miserable.
And it’s in reading that writers find the spark for writing.
There was a long road ahead, my friends.
I didn’t write much after tenth grade.
When I was nineteen, I became a missionary for the great people of Michigan. At the time, my brother Jordan was living in Chile performing his own missionary service.
“Any words of advice?” I asked Jordan as I prepared to leave.
“Write stories,” he said.
That was a puzzling response.
“Excuse me?” I said.
“This opportunity to be a missionary is priceless. You’re going to want to remember this. See, most people, when they write in their journals, they write about their feelings or give a travelogue of everything they did–‘first we did this. Then we did this. Then this.'”
“Ten years from now, twenty years from now, thirty years from now–you’re not going to want to read that. Your kids aren’t going to want to read that. Your grand-kids aren’t going to want to read that. Write something you will want to read. Write something you’re going to want to remember. Write stories.”
So I did. I wrote about the time we almost got arrested because a senile old woman thought we were trying to rob her. I wrote about the time I wasn’t paying attention and barged into someone’s house without knocking.
As a missionary, boring days were few and far between. But when they came, I’d find something that I could write a story about–something that I could dramatize the heck out of. I came to see the world not as a collection of mundane experiences, but as a pool of rich stories–stories that remained dormant until I awakened them with my words like a snake charmer. And once awakened, I’d watch them dance from the page and feel immense satisfaction from it–I wrote that! I’d roused the beast of the mundane and made it live!
But I still couldn’t read very well.
So I kept my stories locked in my journal, afraid that because I wasn’t a reader, I had no business being a writer.
It was a shame. There are too many precious experiences that need to be shared–too many illustrations of the absolute wonder of humanity, once you notice the stories we tell.
Years later, my wife and I planned a long road-trip. For a guy who gets bored easily, I knew I needed to have something to entertain me.
“How about a story?” Amber asked. “An audiobook?”
The thought hadn’t occurred to me–an audiobook. It was the perfect solution–I could listen to the story and wouldn’t have to spend all my mental effort deciphering the text. Somebody could decipher for me.
I still remember the book. It was Ender’s Game, by Orson Scott Card. For the next eleven hours and fifty-seven minutes, I wasn’t driving through the dull landscape of Western Oklahoma. I was floating in null-gravity on a spaceship, battling fellow battle-school students, and training to defeat the Buggers.
I didn’t want it to end. I wanted to be like Ender, to be Ender.
It inspired me to be better–to be smarter, more empathetic, more concerned about the thoughts and emotions of others.
I think stories, so much more than any other tool, inspire us to be better–to reach higher, to sacrifice greater, to endure longer, to love deeper.
That’s what Ender’s Game did for me.
Once I made that breakthrough, I became an audible addict, consuming books like pizza (and I really like pizza). With each book, somewhere in my subconscious, a schema was developing–one that would serve as a platform for my own books years later.
In the time since, I’ve listened to hundreds of books and written four of my own. I’ve created quirky fictional characters and met real people just as quirky. In all my writing, it’s always been about that emotional connection–reminding others that we’re all human. We all have strengths and weaknesses. We all experience the same emotions. And if some guy named Ender can show compassion to a formidable enemy, maybe we all can show empathy to our neighbors.
So go read some stories. Get inspired. Remember the good in others and let that inspire you to do likewise.
Thanks, Christie! I appreciate you stopping by 🙂
Here you are, having written four books, and here I am having written a couple of chapters of unfinished novels. Flat out bust-a-gut hilarious humor isn’t easy to maintain for a whole novel, and I’m not as good at the non-funny stuff. I did get a number of dates by getting a hold of girls’ email addresses and writing them humorous emails, including one to the girl who became my wife. Moral: write funny to get girls, but if you want to write novels, have dyslexia…or something like that…Thanks for the story and the trip down Memory Boulevard (Memory lane is so cliche…and the traffic is horrible). I don’t think my tongue lolls as freely as you imply, and my penmanship has improved dramatically (at least a third-grader wouldn’t be embarrassed by it), but good story nonetheless.
Ha, ha. Thanks for the reply, Eves-dawg 🙂 I hope you’re penning many-a funny romance letters to the misses these days. Let me know if you’re passing down memory lane (sorry, couldn’t afford memory blvd) and I’ll be sure to make sure the sign outside my door is spelled correctly. And see, there I go again, trying to out-funny you. I’d better quit while I’m…er…nevermind. Peace out.
What a wonderful, inspiring post! Ender’s Game is one of my favorite stories from my childhood, although I read it in print (never been a huge fan of audio books.) Just hearing you praise it makes me want to go read it again now…It’s awesome that it brought you back into the world of books and writing!
Thanks, Heather. I’ve probably read (i.e., “listened”) to that book about 15 times. I adore it.
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I just started my free trial of audibles this week, and happen to have one free download left. Your post couldn’t have come at a better time. I don’t read much fiction, but your post is reminding me of the importance of story. In fact, many of my favorite nonfiction books, are wrapped in story–So I may have to start diving into fiction books more often 🙂
And speaking of story, thanks for sharing these struggles from your own story. I’m inspired by your goal of writing and publishing five books, quickly. If you can press forward in spite of dyslexia, then I can keep pressing forward in spite of the challenges I face.
I love this post and I’m excited about following you on the journey!
Thanks, Jed. I’m excited for the journey and excited to see what comes of yours. Best of luck!
As a fellow dyslexic, my parents somehow imbued a love of reading in me. I just felt I couldn’t “write.” Now I have a child with learning disabilities. Funny the therapists taught me early on to use audiobooks. Now I’m going to pick up Enders Game off my bedside table, my daughter brought it to me and insisted I read it.
I wasn’t diagnosed as a kid, so that recommendation never came. Glad you figured it out early! (And you’ll love Ender’s Game 🙂
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